Monday, May 2, 2011
Ideal Perfection
This city of dreams held together with ploys
Darkness entraps, stealing all joys
Words of the heard destroying the weak
Less is the goal, perfection I seek
The smile I fake saying every thing's fine
Wondering if someone will see that I’m dying’
Killing me, eating me, chewing away
The bile I spew, starvation leads me astray
Media, friends, feed into my deception
Amplifying my vision, I long for perfection
Thin hearts of deceived kill my need for weight
Scales, sizes, scrutiny; They control my fate
Crying at night brings little peace
When I reach my goal madness won't cease
Never enough destroying my life
Taking me hostage feeding my strife
Dreaming of days where none of it matters
Invisible weight makes me feel fatter
Holding me down, mentality strongholds
Creating more standards, unreachable goals
Bones are jut out, zeros not enough
Internally Broken, I've got to seem tough
Every thing's OK, I'll still smile and lie
Fighting myself, you cant see me cry
Lost in this madness, my imperfection tears me apart
Screaming for hope, a change needs to start
Fighting myself, changing this trend
Will anyone help me or will my problem be my end