Cutters Lullaby

Slice, Dice, Cut up nice

No feeling, no feeling

A scarlet ribbon trailing down

Make way my pain, I'm insane, my vein

Relief, Relief

Scary truth I never admit

I'm addicted, Conflicted, Feeling restricted

Cry, Cry

There's nothing to gain

Wishing to refuse it, I muse it, then lose it

Control, control

How can I make you understand

Crying, trying, striving to meet

Perfection, Perfection

This is how I'm slowly dying

Laying in bed, said, I'm dead

Don't try, Don't try

About to fall down

I want to feel, heal, learn to deal

Give me hope, Give me hope

Cause I have no reason to go on

Simple Unknown

I laugh, I smile, wondering why

I don't understand, give up don't try

Feeling Ashamed I can forcefully feel

Every emotion, I don't know how to deal

Curled up in corners too scared to fall asleep

Monsters surround me, I'm in it too deep

God will you save me? Give me hope?

Cause on my own, I can't cope

I need your love, I need your grace

To help me through all I face!

I hate..... love you

Did you know

I hate you

Day is night

Night is blue

Feelings come

Feelings go

Didn't wish

This were so

I said Hi

You walked away

I said bye

Now you stay

I didn't quite

Comprehend

What the heck

Fake smile won't lend

Mind is lost

Simple bliss

Gone is love

Now I miss

Wishes gone

Tears I drown

Evil deeds

All you crown

Gotta stay

Don't make me beg

Why you go

I'll never peg

I always try

To make way

But you still

walk astray

I find it hard

Not to spew

Angry words

Back are you

Hear the cries

Of many tears

Spilling over

Through the years

*SIGH*

Did you know

I love you

I hope that this

Can be that clue

Please come home

I beg you stay

And not just

For the day

Gaming

Its absurd how people hang onto every word

Like a disease filling up your mind

Not quite the way it was intended

but I guess people had other plans

Searching for hope in those with none

I hate this pointless idiocy

I want to go back to the days where people mattered

and it wasn't all just a game

Why do people play games?

like they get a kick out of ignoring peoples pain?

Don't follow the media!

It wreaks of depression and my sweet suicide

Make it worse to make yourself feel better?

How is that working out for you?

I HATE these mind games

I miss being a child

When I would live out my dreams as my soul intention

As easy as breathing living for each day

Talking to the sky, imagining what God would say

Nothing would hold me back from reaching my dream

Except growing up

It's controlling me completely I don't understand

Peoples words effect me all so much

I wanna stop playing games quit toying with my head

This stupid reality

I'd rather be dead

God come on! where are you in this??

I'm begging you to come down and show me yourself

Help me know that I'm not crazy

Remind me you're there

I wanna feel like I'm talking to something more than the ceiling

But if you don't reply I want to stay true

My faith is more important than what I say or do

In the end I want people to know

Even though I wasn't perfect, I hated these satanic games!

I stood strong and made my every living breath about you!