Monday, September 27, 2010

Welcome to School


The Asian in the corner, and Gangster wanna be
When you look around is this what you see?
The guy who thinks he's funny, even though we know he's not
The chick who giggles cutely, low cut tanks look really hot

Freshman on the window sill, where seniors used to sit
If you do that back in middle school, teachers throw a fit
Leaders mingle silently pretending not to hear
Every word profanity landing in their ears

Students talking hotties, and other pointless things
To make themselves look cooler, seeing what popularity will bring
Laughter, chatter, shuffles, echoing so loud
All of us hide shame even though we look so proud

Rebels cry clinging to the air
Do you see peace around hear?
then look closer, at who still sits with who
I'll let you know , races, is your clue

Yeah that's right they are still apart
Unable to see past skin to the heart
We stand for freedom, and fight for blindness
but i guess for me, in my school, it's just hard to miss

Tell Me The Point


Insanity
The repetitive cycle controls our fates
Like a cow
We hope to get more out of it each time
but continually failing
Banging our heads against a wall
No changes
Striving for the best
A Useless attempt
Telling ourselves just one more day
Which turns to 25,550 more
Time is being lost
Making it's way down
25549 days
25548 days
25547 days
Slowly losing track of time
23128 days
Which day are we at?
20111 days
How many more will we lose,
Before we realize our flaws
15329 days down
Insanity is a crazy thing
Preying on us
Feeding on us
As time repeats
12489 days
Repeats and forgets its failures
a dance between the universe and human stupidity
9651 days
How much longer can things go on like this?
How much more will we take?
Spitting history back out on us
Ones step forward means three steps back
Chains hold us to our past
7103 days
Years, decades, Time
None of it matters
When in the end our lives seemingly mean nothing
5422 days
What is our purpose?
No longer is this meaningful
Losing time
Losing track
2931 days
Days mean nothing
Pointless
Speaking lies
Messing with our heads
1473 days
"Learn from your history
Learn from your mistakes"
it really means
"Follow their patterns
With your own flare and style"
967 days
Losing time
Silly world
Think you're smart?
423 days
I think they tricked you
Don't feel bad
they tricked me too
They tricked us all
How does it feel
Knowing the truth
After buying their lies
365 days
I supposed on can only hope
Death comes quick
7 days
Hiding our shame
6 days
Leaving our mistakes
5 days
Allowing history to, again, repeat
4 days
Craziness continues
3 days
The cycles still continues
2 days
We are all insane
1 day
then we die!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

What is truth?


I once looked in mirrors and thought....
Fear
Discontent
Not good enough

I once thought I was......
Ugly
Worthless
Stupid

I once screamed....
Can't
Won't
Impossible

I was once told....
Lies
Pain
Death

I now know....
Father
Lover
Jesus

And because of him I am....
Beautiful
Loved
Worthy

Real Love?


Can I please you?
Make you happy?
If I do,
Will you stay?

I'm sick of hurt.
Dark nights with tears.
Emptiness,
Hopelessness

Tasting my lips,
Feeling me down,
Giving love
Never last

I've seen it done.
You'll walk away.
Moving on,
Conquering.

Crying in bed,
Hugging my knees.
Do you know,
How it feels?

Of course you don't,
Leave me alone.
I love you,
You don't care.

What is real love?
I've never known.
In and out,
Walk away.

You are taking,
I am willing.
Is it real?
I think yes?

Can I please you?
Make you happy?
If I do,
Will you stay?

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Nevado Del Ruiz


It's a horrendous feeling of helplessness
Pins and needles connecting with butterflies
Knots and rocks create a heavy weight
Watching plea across a face
Knowing I can't do anything about it

Her fate determined by wreckage around
Rubble, mess, and hands keeping her down
A glisten of hope shimmers in her eyes
Even though we all know
There's nothing we can do to keep her from dying

It hurts to think of all things not done
Anger and rage fills my heart with pain
Welling from empathy I hadn't known before
25 years may be too long to feel bad
Bit it kills me knowing all the power none had

The lack of care from all of their "friends"
Proven on the day 23,000 met their ends
Something as simple as power, money, and a name for herself
Could have stopped this tragedy
If we made her life as important as ourselves

So Please don't think me another student just writing for fun
I have been angered by those who stood and did none
What would we want if our lives had been switched
This stupid economy where it's all about us
If we don't help them, who will help us?

Friday, September 10, 2010

Beauty In the Dark

Days turned into hazy nights
Swiftly attacking the horizon
the last chance of light disappears in sparks
Pin pricks fill the darkened sky
Holding true peaceful ray
Filling night with hope
The moon scares all fear away
Darkened beauty shines
Cause dreaming of future wishing
It's my beauty in the dark

Dead Girl


Staggering girl
Dancing slow
Ripped up dress
Sunken soul

Lack of hope
Defeat has come
To knock her down
From where she's from

Hear me children
Ashened face
Walking slow
Among this sage

Cry for her
Tears run down
Give her hope
In the ground

Endless Battle


I'm not alright I'm not OK
This days not fair stay away

Battles lost people screwed
Over by a God I'm scared to lose

Mores brought down around us now
Get on your knees to sin you'll bow

The forceful lie ringing true
Heads cut off the faithful few

In a crowd I'm on my knees
Begging God destroy us please

We don't deserve what you give
Take us down so You might live

People plan a thicker plot
The lives they fake with out a thought

Don't you know what brought us here
The lies we all chose to hold dear

So now we die in senselessness
Consumed by flames, blackened mess

For our minds the endless battle
Till we choose destroy this rattle


Monday, September 6, 2010

Reflection


A scarred up brain once took control
In my mirror showed my soul
Bearing fear and constant dread
Things I thought, better left unsaid

Stars and looks I used to believe
An ugly reflection became my peeve
Hating myself drove me Insane
"God will you help me?" I'd cry and start praying

Worthlessness became my name
Embedded in my head I played their game
Fear and lies became my god
Bowing down to self hates rod

Mirrors shattered I hated myself
Every reflection destroying my health
Trusting their word, I knew they were wrong
But it wouldn't matter once I was gone

Ask what I saw when I stared in a mirror?
Nothing seemed right, imperfection was there
Putting myself down, tears would flow
The truth of what I saw was an ugly thing to show

It took me years to overcome
What had happened, where I was from
To look in the mirror and finally see
A beautiful person staring back at me

I wasn't a mistake thrown away
God doesn't make those, despite what they say
He made me perfect in His own image
And to live life in Him is such a privilege

When I give up my hurts and step aside
Giving Him control, giving up my pride
He heals my fears gives me life with purpose
Everyday amazes me leaving me breathless

A holy perfect God picked up this broken girl
When death was hope, He called me His pearl
Giving me an Identity in Him
My mirror reflection will never dim